I Slept with My Pussy Hat On

(Inspired by poem “Womanifesto” by Libba Bray, posted Feb. 8, 2017

https://libbabray.wordpress.com/2017/02/08/womanifesto/

Feb 10, 2017

 

Last night I lay

In bed.

Warren had been silenced

The people ignored

My writers group disbanded

Over a penis fight.

I was tired

So tired.

 

And though I lay each night

With a man worthy of the name

Who at that moment was

doing dishes in the other room

And putting children to bed

Still, I ached.

 

It’s not just about me

So far, we had come so far

This is the last time

Is what I tell myself

Every time a penis fight breaks out

And I don’t speak up

Speak out, demand they stop.

 

Again, here I sit

Thinking I was safe

In a place where people used their brains

No

It was only a matter of time

It always is.

 

So I reached

I reached for my pussy hat.

At the foot of my bed

Tossed down lovingly after

The thrill of the march

The thrill of togetherness

The idea

That we just might win.

 

But that was weeks ago.

Since then, I attended meetings

Where teens debate how to protect themselves

From their own government.

Where talks of succession

Is a real conversation.

“Oregon would come with us”

They say.

 

If they knew, the work, the luck

To form a successful government

If they knew what that would be committing to

If they knew

But what choice do they have

To go back to the way things were

Years ago, when we that don’t fit in

Were the target of religion, government

And society?

They will not go back.

 

I trained them, taught them

In history and government

They know.

Still, it is scary,

So I reach for my pussy hat.

 

I give myself permission

To not think about the falling, swirling pain

The silencing brings.

Every time that happened to me

Came thundering back

Pushing me down

To the ground.

I spent the day

Stunned, wind knocked out of me

So I put my pussy hat on.

 

I feel better.

With my pussy hat on.

The fibers I crocheted

Are infused now

Infused with the enthusiasm

The tweets and posts

The posters and chants

Battle cries and rally posts

I feel power when I say

Pussy hat.

 

So I tuck down into my bed

With my pussy hat on

Emblazoned and emboldened

Ready to rest, and ready to fight.

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